(a)marah

kmrn abis ngbrl2 sm seorang tmn, hmm, mgkn lebih tepatnya dgrin dia curhat. kirain tentang percintaan, yaa standar lah ya. tp ternyata dia malah curhat ttg persahabatan. hmm, hal yg mnrt gw udh jarang dibahas aja, abis biasanya klo lo dan sahabat lo udh sahabatan lama, you both have already known how to deal with any problem in your friendship. hm, dia crt ada sahabatnya yg ngambek sm dia krn ada kaitannya dg masalah percintaan. menurut si tmn gw itu, biasanya sahabatnya emg kdg2 ngambek, tp yg ini siy ktnya terlama dan terparah.

hmm, then i asked my friend to tell me about the details why it happened. yaa stlh diceritain, gw siy mikirnya si sahabatnya ga bener2 marah atau gimana2, hm, tipikal cewek aja, yg kadang lbh milih buat diem dan ngambek dibanding hrs crt apa yg sbnrnya ada di benak mrk. berharap klo si sahabat (cowok)nya bisa nebak2 dan nyimpulin sndr knp dia ngambek, trus minta maaf atau ngasi penjelasan. mgkn si cewek ga maksud buat ngambek atau marah, dia cm gamau aja si sahabat cowoknya itu knp2 cm gara2 urusan percintaan. yaa saking carenya sm si sahabat, dia akhirnya malah jd kesel sndr, yauda deh jd ngambek.

gw mikir kyk gt bkn tanpa alasan. soalnya, me as a girl sometimes did that too. baru2 ini si sahabat jg lg knp2 sm pacarnya. krn satu dan lain hal, gw suka geregetan sndr sm dia. abis kyknya pasrah sekali ya. i’m actually sure that my friend has own reasons to act like that, somehow i do choose to be a pasrahan person, tapi kmrn2 itu agak ga pas aja. geregetan sndr aja liat dia jd gloomy, sedih2an, dan kyknya capek gitu mukanya gara2 kebanyakan pikiran.

mgkn alasan itu yg kdg bikin cewek2 suka ngambek2 sndr sm sahabat cowoknya. kdg hal2 kyk gt dianggep simple sm cowok, tp cewek kan kdg2 lbh peka, dan keseringan pake perasaan, jd deh mrk bs ngambek gara2 hal kecil. atau mgkn krn si sahabat ngebatalin janji, atau dia merasa si sahabat ga pernah ngajak jalan2, atau bahkan (sedikit) jealous krn si sahabat udh pnya kehidupan percintaan atau kesibukan lain yg akhirnya bikin dia merasa tersisih alias dinomerduakan. cm mrk gengsi aja blg gt, makanya deh misuh2 sendiri.

tp namanya jg cewek. dg permintaan maaf serta bujuk rayu buat ga ngulangin lg, biasanya siy bisa luluh. lagipula masa siy marah beneran sm sahabat sendiri dan mana bisa siy marah lama2 sm org penting yg slalu ada dan siap buat kita anytime anywhere. ya kan?

universe

dear H,

i was just wondering about what we were talking about tonight and several days ago. here are some analogies which pop-up from our mind about you-know-what topic we always discussed lately.

“bumi hrs mengitari matahari. coba bayangin klo bumi ga lg mengitari matahari”

“hrsnya kyk sesama planet aja, jd ga saling mengitari, tp berputar beriringan”

then i suddenly thought, that’s nature and that’s how it should happen. on the other hand, what are we? we are human. we have something whether those planets don’t, something we called it heart.

then i remembered about ‘chance’. every person gets one best chance, and every person deserves a second chance. just dont miss it, or let it go without any effort.

hmm, then forgiveness thingy also comes to my mind. forgive to be forgiven. yapp just like the old quotes: treat others just like the way you want others to treat you.

everyone has their own version of happiness. that makes people dont always get what they want, because happiness comes with so many different ways and forms. however, you’ll know when it comes to you one day. so do i. then you dont have to worry that much, hm? i’ll always be fine.

p.s.: this is just a short message for you, H. think about it and follow your heart, okay? i’ll be here to listen, and always ready to catch you just in case you will fall down. just like i said before, it’s only a short message for one of the most important people in my life, who deserves every single happiness in this universe. anyway, i believe you can do it!! semangattt!  5,9 is no big deal right? hehehe

-W-

9 years from now

i was wondering something. hmm, what will i do in 2018? what will i look like? what will he look like?

no matter what, we’re getting married in 2018.

hahahahaha it’s funny. i’m trying not to imagine every single thing and detail, just let it flow maybe.

ps. anyway, i’ll find another someone first. you too, right? smangat H! hahahaha

inget2 smua perjanjian dan hal yg udh kita bahas. it’ll be great actually.

buat H: just learn how to like me, okay? hahahaha

it is called colorgenic

*terinspirasi dari blog irsyad. harusnya dicoba sejak long weekend kmrn di jkt. tp laptop si papa ga bs mengakses*

it is called ColorGenic.

Name: dilla
Date: 5/19/2009
Colorgenics Number: 14523607

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You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back… so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn’t worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace… no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don’t want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for ‘them’ to get on with it – and to leave you alone.

*sebagian besar, benar adanya. sebagian lagi nyerempet2 dikit. hmmhmm*

ps. tp kok hasil yg kamu panjang banget siy, H?

goodnight and go

there are so many things happened in my daily life recently. the latest one was the emergency meeting between me and my closest (best)friends at starbucks this evening. i dont know why, but i actually didnt care about it. i mean, come on, i wasnt surprised. i actually had some scenarios which i didnt share with anyone but myself. called it cenayang or ‘feeling’ (i like to call it instinct), but yess, i had already predicted it since long long long time ago.
maybe i should listen to what irsyad said about the situation, especially my good-nice-angelic behavior during the situation. then, today, i just realize, irsyad was correctly right. maybe i should be the devilish girl once.

so, for YOU, out there. just go! leave us alone. thank you.
if only i could turn back time, maybe we just shouldnt meet.

ps. this blog was written yesterday, but since i had problem with the interenet connection, i just post it today.

buat smua yg kmrn ada di starbucks (juga buat yg ga dtg karna satu dan lain hal), there’s nothing i could say to you, all. nothing but only THANK YOU SO MUCH!

love you all dearest (best)friends!

weirdo weekend

WHY?

wecause whis weekend wis weird! wahahahaa okay, rewind, aneh banget smuanya pake huruf depan W.

okayy, hmm, because so many need-to-be-highlighted things happen in this 3 days (random order):

1. many many many many stories. irsyad, primo, kalman with different types of happy-sad-sweet-bitter-yet nice to listen stories (good luck for the love life, you guys!!).

*jgn bosen ya klo aku curhat dan nangis ke kalian trus labil karna seneng-sedih ga karuan*

2. bertha’s new gadget (baca: BB). yeahh!! and okky’s unfinished stories.

3. private plurks. hahaha love you plurkers. very entertaining dan menghilangkan stress.

4.  i bought some books! oooh guilty pleasure niy, since there are still tons of assignments to do.

5. company visit to HM Sampoerna at Pacific Place. meet director of corporate affairs (Mr. Yos Ginting). super ngefans!

6. a week after terrible week, last week. *no need further explanation. too exhausting and too sad to be told)

7. still have EMS assignment to do, tp dr td malah nulis2 nyiapin postingan ini.

8. “sudden-short-as-normal-as-before yet no goodbye” late night conversation. *speechless*

9. batal nonton Momento dg alasan tampaknya tdk perlu karna takut smua masa lalu muncul lg di depan muka. klo kata orang jaman dlu: mencegah lbh baik drpd mengobati. thuuus, i decided to not to go there at all.

10. last but not least, yg membuat lengkap keunikan weekend ini: Bayu ‘pak CEO’ Ardhyanto shared some stories, too. wooow after all this time. udh lama ga dicurhatin sm pak boss. hahaha

aaakhh! me need longer weekend!! huhuhu

London-my dream city!!

after thinking and considering several things (and of course talking with my mom and dad), i think i decide to continue my study in US or UK. yeaaiiy! LONDON! actually i changed my mind at first, since UK is very very very far away and there were some reasons which i can’t mention here. but then, i recently change my mind (again). maybe i should go there. why not, huh?

moreover, after long and funny discussion with mr.Kalman Wijaya (pharmacist and owner of  Cooking Kalman-red), i think i’ll take IOP as my subject to take. ooh btw, IOP stands for Industrial and Organization Psychology.  since i really want to take the major which concerning about people and human relation and IOP sounds interesting. *thank you sooo much, brother! good luck with the cooking thingy to your cem-ceman, hahaha*

anywaaaay, klo aku jd ke sana, jenguk2 yaa, teman-teman! hahaha

p.s. this plan is still changeable plan. i still dont know what will happen in the future *yaiyalaaah!*.yaa lagian syp tau diantara lo smua-my dearest friends-ada yg ga rela gw pergi jauh2. hahaha *GR abiiisss!*

gpp deh, yg penting punya rencana dlu. hmmhmm.

lift me high, throw me to the ground.

some words, in one sentence.

describe all, describe everything.

is it the reason behind your presence?

yapp at least that’s what i’m thinking.

my life recently

what did happen in the last few weeks and several days?

assignment, assignment, and more assignments. nyadar siy pasti ga sehectic anak2 brand comm dan mene, tp tetep aja namanya assignment.

friendship bracelet. haha udh kyk home industry aja, smua orang lg seneng belajar bikin gelang2 dr benang sulam. gw? bikin jg, walopun br pnya bbrp. lumayan lah.

this roller coaster-look-a-like feeling. naik turun naik turun dg kecepatan yg smakin ga menentu. bikin deg2an, perut dan hati ngilu, kepala pusing, mata sembab karna nangis ketakutan daaan kuping orang2 panas karna gw teriak panik terus. ooh one thing, last wednesday and thursday were the two worst days ever *at least for the last one year*.  those two little rivers just kept falling down, i didnt even know how to stop. bunches of thanks for my dearest friends. all of you. i didnt know what would happen if you guys weren’t there to catch me from falling. however, i just can say friday night was unpredictable yet sweet.

then, i remember something. i did write a poem, i forgot the exact time i wrote it. so, maybe it is okay if i just post it now.

another untitled

do you mind, if i ask you what is it actually on your mind?
i don’t think i can see, it is because i’m blind
i only hear your voice and only feel your presence
can you tell what is it all about in one sentence?

mirror mirror hanging in the wall
could you tell me when actually he will call?
will he just let me fall?
or will he take me to the hall?
and let me have just one dance
the dance that we will do at glance
i will always memorize that night
the night when you will hold me tight
sometimes i don’t think that moment will come
just like another dream, you get some then you lose some

may i ask you something?
some things which i’ve been thinking
can we be together?
just in case i need you to stay here forever
or can i still memorize your smile?
even we are far away in mile
or maybe i still can keep my dream
that someday we will be at the same team

last but not least. i am happy. dad, mom, brother, thanks for the wonderful sunday! love youu!

hm, td abis dgrin cd vierra. ada lirik lagu yg nyantol.

aku suka dirinya, mungkin aku sayang. namun salahkah aku bila kupendam rasa ini.

some memorable events of all time (2008 edition)

yaa I perfectly know this is the midterm exam week, which the ideal thing to do is STUDY! hahaha but, the idea and inspiration to write down about those events just popped up in my mind. thus, I decided to write it down before I forget and of course before I go to SBM to learn about UU 13 th.2003 oooh and sharia finance also. however, I don’t have to do any exam today. yeaah! congratulations to me.

now, why did I choose this topic? haha simple, I just looked at my photos album and suddenly got inspired. hahahha

here is the list:

(8 Maret 2008) first thing first, ini foto pertama yg bikin gw pgn nulis blog ini. hahaha org yg terlibat emg dikit, cm gw primo, dan satu org lagi. tapiiii, malunya pol dan sukses bikin gw diketawain primo klo kita ngebahas kejadian ini. hmm, it happened when me and Primo watched Java Jazz 2008. we came in the evening to firstly watched my “friend’s” band. after the performance, my ‘friend’ came to meet me, and that embarrassing accident happened! *sorry, I won’t tell the whole story, if you really want to know, just ask me then I’ll tell you (oooh or ask Primo). hahaha

(6 Februari 2008) Bertha’s birthday party and surprise!! hmmm, yg ini memorable banget! I was having so much fun with all of you, guys! makan2nya oke, surprisenya lbh oke lagi. hehehe berhasil bikin Bertha kaget, kampung dago berantakan, dan perut kita smua super kenyang. hahaha

(5 Maret 2008) next, we do the surprise thingy for Saby. her birthday was on 3 March, but we just did it two days after. hahaha skenario awalnya si okky, burung, dan achenk tiba2 dtg ke rmh saby. trus pake curhat smpe nangis2 sgala, laluuuu muncul deh yg lainnya sambil bawain kue. hehhehe lagi2 berhasil. saby bnr2 kaget. nahh berhubung siangnya gw udh kongkalikong sm om dan tante bonyoknya saby, jd kita dimasakin spaghetti deeh. kenyang lagii!

(6 April 2008) next, next, ultahnya Tossa. aduh yg ini agak abal. dani siiiy ga jago acting. haha jd tossanya rada curiga deh. pdhl kita udh heboh banget gelap2an di rmh aji. tp untung tetep jalan yaa. di sini tossa msh gondrong, usi rambutnya msh panjang, rambut gw msh pendek, dannnn minul gondrong! hahahaha ga cocok. anyway, yg ini seru jg kok. soalnya Tossa disiram pake ramuan ajaib.

(6 Juni 2008) makan2 Dimas dan Burung. yg ini ga pake surprise2an. soalnya yg ulang taun udh dluan ngundang kita2. hmm, di Atmosphere deh klo ga salah. wktu itu siy Dimas dan Burung itu kakak adek, hahahaha tp skarang udh cinta2an *noraaak parah bahasanya* ooooh, tp skrg udh holding hands. hahahahahah *peace ahh, bur!*

(kyknya Juli 2008) wahhh! yg ini seru bangett bangettt! kapan lg kumpul rame2 bareng anak2 2010 juga trus rafting. hehehehe oiya, pake ada outbondnya sgala. hehe yapp ini emg acara KM-SBM siy dalam rangka team building, tp kerasa banget kok dktnya. kapan2 lg yuuuk! tp yg lbh panjang dan seru yaa tracknya. hahaha

(4 – 18Agustus 2008) dari smua events, gw paling cinta sm yg ini. hehehe kapan lg Euro Trip sambil bawa nama Indonesia. bangga deh bisa nari dan perform di depan orang2 di sana. mereka appreciated banget sm apa yg kita tampilin. bener2 ngehargain budaya deh. festivalnya seru banget, jalan2nya apalagii. blanja2, keliling2, aand the red light district was the most memorable one, right guys? hehehe oiya, walaupun gempor karna mesti latian byk tarian dan musik selama berbulan2, tp worthy kok. no pain no gain lahh ya!

(16 Desember 2008) kali ini korbannya Okky. hehehe kita ga ngediemin Okky seharian siy, tp dia berasanya gitu! masa ktnya gw dingin banget trus ngmg cm seperlunya ke dia. hahaha yg laen jg ktnya diem2 aja kyk ga ada yg ultah hari itu. cm ngucapin doang, trus udh deh. padahaaal hr itu emg lg hectic aja. ckkckk tp Okky gatau aja, kita sbnrnya udh nyiapin sesuatu kok di Lisung. hehe akhirnya malem2 Okky dibawa sm Fahmi jalan2 sementara kita nyiapin smuanya. pas acara Okky kaget banget dan terharu (katanya). hehe pake ada kembang api sgala. eiiits tp itu bkn dr kita, ada jg yg lg bikin surprise. hahaha tp gpp lah yaa, bareng2 nikmatin kembang apinya.

last but not least, yang ini makan2nya Ant Company. gw lupa tepatnya bulan apa. pokoknya ini superAnt reunited. hehehe makan2 gratis di Suki Garden, pake duit company. hahahaha

akhirnyaaa blog ini kepost jugaa. yauda ahh, mau tdr dlu. super ngantuk smpe pgn nangis. daaaan bsk msh ada uts financial planning. aaarrrghh!